Day 1 Vol. 8 

Ok.  So i’m trying again.  Quitting smoking, that is.  Cold turkey as usual, using running as my primary motivation.  So it’s day one.  Day one is actually the easiest.  The cravings are so specific and intense that getting through them gives you immediate satisfaction that is almost on par with smoking a cigarette.  It’s the cravings on like day three or four that trip me up. i’m way more susceptible to the subtle psychological cravings on these days.  on day three or four is when you start making tiny bargains in your head that quickly snowball into a purchase.  anyway, i’m going to try to keep this open today and update as needed…..

cravings haven’t been too bad today.  definitely feel a little foggy, mentally speaking.  finding it hard to concentrate, but it’s always hard for me to concentrate, the lack of nicotine is just lightly exascerbating what is my normal state of being.

totally think i’m gonna go through with my tattoo idea at some point.  gonna hurt like a bitch in that area, but it’s going to be very small so whatevers.

another thing i forgot to mention, i’m trying to get through this time without: sucking on anything incessantly, eating chocolate for the endorphins and completely pigging out b/c i’m hungry all the time.

should be a hoot.

the pissiness is coming on now. want to kill…aaaaaaaaaaargh.